Private Life is A Power

I stopped sharing stories on my social media,

I stopped see my friends stories,

I stopped repost stories tagging me,

I stopped logged in on my account,

I stopped wasting my time for scrolling my social media,

I stopped think what I should post on my Instagram,

I stopped every activities on my Instagram,

Not because I’ve got no life or something to updates, or I am not doing something in my life, I just think I needed these feelings; I don’t need people know what I am doing, I don’t need people assuming who I am and how my life going by what their see online.

It’s doesn’t feed me, it’s doesn’t feed my soul, it’s doesn’t make everything about myself better, nothing changes between I upload, just repost or not at all.

I don’t want to impress every online-friends that I have, I don’t wanna tell them that I living a great life at the moment I uploaded something.

I just want to enjoy every single moment that happen in my life, I want to listen every word of someone that having conversation with me, without spare another minutes to editing my live-content to tell anyone on internet how I am feel lately, or I was somewhere, somewhere good to visit, or who I am going with, who I am spent the time with.

Almost everyone around me, have second account or maybe third and on, and they chosen their closest friend on their account to upload something maybe without thinking how they look, without editing or concern someone will giving bad comments and being judge.

I just wondering, I am talking about this not to bring down someone idealism about their social media and especially in their own account.

I just, sad. Sad enough to wonder, how can people live like that? I just can’t be someone else on my social media, either I can’t be the real me on them. I can’t 24/7 post what I am going through, or pretending my life was great because I should upload-upload and upload.

I can’t be hiding on my close friend, then showing off on my second account.

I just believe what I see in real life. I can’t believe something by what their contents on social media. I believe that every person in this world, has a truly life, a real life, a real personality on its own, even they not posted it on their social media. And, just, respect them for that. Respect their for don’t want to be exist online. Because, people nowadays don’t know the difference.

And I wanna know people based on who the hell they are in their real life. I wanna people know who I am is by only see me in a real life, on what I am defining something, on how I am seeing the world, I wanna take a picture is only for me, not think what kind of filter or preset I should use, I wanna people know what I am doing recently only by their ask in the real met, the eye to eye talk, the quality of talk, quality of care, everything that exist on myself just the way I am, not because the social media made me who I am, made me an image into someone that maybe I don’t even know who they are.

I’ve trying to be real over here,

I’ve trying to build my real,

Living a life a little,

Use social media wisely,

Choose what I watch, what I read,

For my own knowledge.

Being online,

With my own name,

With my own photos,

Never hiding in another name or account,

Because I don’t want to life a live like that.

Hiding, pretending, or seeking attention for life I barely not there.

And by not sharing anything online too much, disappearing in my social media world, it’s always be the best of the best decision that I’ve ever made in my life.

~ written by Anna, 2020